Talk about hard to breath!! As I sat down to eat my fantastic egg sandwich this evening, Irealized I have been back in the states for about a month now! I haven't smelled the roses and I'm pretty sure they are about to be out of season. I have moved, visited family, found odd jobs and tied up a lot of loose ends that needed to be clipped. It has been so hectic, but fabulous all at the same time.
I began studying Luke 9. the summation of the chapter is the true cost following Jesus and what that really means to us... "Coincidentally," I also started reading Radical, by David, Platt. Talk about mind blowing! The insight and the challenges that asks us to go through are so not what is normal. It has made me reevaluate my entire existence and ask myself the question if I really and truly am serving God or if I'm just playing the part really well. Let's face it, I could be a phenomenon on the stage.
In Luke, God started with a group of 5,000! You know how many he ended up with? 12... And look where we have ended up today. The number 1 best selling book of all time? The bible. Most influential person of all time? Jesus. Are you kidding me?!?! He spoke to mountains and they moved! He said, "Excuse me sea, you are in Moses' way, MOVE!... (that's not verbatim) and they did. It is absolutely fantastic to see what day in and day out such an awesome creator and guess what kids?! He chose me to continue the work that his first 12 started.
I have always, always, always fought the American dream of having a 9-5 and raking in the benefits of the world. I'm not knocking those people who do , but my mold has never been in that same form. Because that has always been beat into my head, I've never explored the other option.
I'm taking everything God says literally. I've sold everything I owned with the exception of some clothing; Lexington Police would have a hay day if I went around naked. I'm heading back to Honduras and I can't wait! We are taking a team down in December and when they leave, I'm staying! Trying to deal and get over my past and my struggles with living are dead and buried. I am a new woman on a new mission. Conquer the world... Or... Tegucigalpa. Which ever one comes first. :)
I am taking the promise of a hard life in exchange for eternal rewards. Let my cross be one of the millions promised a rich, abundant, eternal life. I figure it's the least I can do after all the hell I put him through.
Please be praying for me as I return to Tegucigalpa and for the members of my team... Most of them are my family so you know that'll be awesome!
As they were walking along the road, a man said to him, "I will follow you wherever you go.Jesus replied, "Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has no place to lay his head." He said to another man, "Follow me." But the man replied, "Lord, first let me go and bury my father."Jesus said to him, "Let the dead bury their own dead, but you go and proclaim the kingdom of God." Still another said, "I will follow you, Lord; but first let me go back and say good-by to my family." Jesus replied, "No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God."